Sculpting Your Reality

Through my healing practices, I find that old wounds and battle scars often rise to the surface. They can be so weathered with age that I forgot that they even existed. Many of my subconscious wounds will materialize in dreams. I’ll wake up and think, ugh why does my heart hurt, that was twenty years ago. Time, I have found, does not heal all wounds. You heal your wounds, and somewhere inside there is an inner judge holding a stopwatch. Fire them.

To get to the root of the wound, I will follow the breadcrumbs and detect when those wounds first formed.

For example, say I am at the store and want a new luxurious blanket, but money is a little tight right now. I find myself shrinking back in the store, sighing, thinking “Maybe one day.” But the dense constriction in my chest is telling a different story than, “Maybe one day.” My heart space is usually reaching out to me for love and recognition of self. “Like hey, I am here, and I am adequate. Do you see me and acknowledge me?”

So, while my brain is seeking external fulfillment and the comfort of this new blanket, my heart and inner child are seeking comfort, unconditional love, and my attention.

Buying the blanket will bring me temporary satisfaction but will that inner void be filled by the blanket? No, usually not. This comes back to worthiness, and it begs the question, do you feel you deserve the unconditional love and comfort you seek? Will you allow yourself to receive it from you?

Unworthiness wounds to receive love from an external person can often mirror where we are cutting ourselves off from our own love, internally. Who told you that you weren’t good enough? That you were unworthy of their love? We can take those beliefs and make all kinds of crappy sculptures with them. We model them into shapes and little structures, essentially paving our way with someone else’s belief system of our worth (which is usually a reflection of their own self-worth).  But at the time, it was the only Play-Doh that we had, so we worked with what we could.

Like any tower that is created on a false foundation, the tower will inevitably crumble because it was not constructed of truth.

The tower moment we all dread can turn out to be a blessing if you allow it to be. You have a fresh new opportunity to create a new structure based on new information. As you learn and grow and receive new truths and updated information, you can eliminate and demolish anything you want to.

This is your reality, and you are the sculptor.